It's Yeux, the fortunate

 At the start of 2026, everything felt like a dream. Looking back filled with my new tries and the upgraded me. But wait, I'm not going to forget that there are lot of nights which I spend with stifled sob. I know I loved the people whom I was with but from the start I felt I couldn't get close to them. They are just on a different league and nice. I remember telling my college friend with whom I shared hostel room in last couple of years, that I would never fit into their group or I can never get along with them. But in 2025 I hung out with them a lot of time, even went on a longest trip in my life along with the silent crying at night. I keep question myself why I cry? This just don't feel right. This does feel comfortable. But how can I stay? Because they always played that nice people role who would let anyone into that space and it felt so smooth for me who believed it was coming from bottom of heart. They don't speak this louder or harsher. Slowing things down if ...

 I was staying in a shared room for my work at Bengaluru. There is a cleaning lady who initiates a short conversations often. It can't go longer as we speak different language.  Initially she asks me for the sweet I had while she comes for cleaning, and then it just started as a demand. I felt uncomfortable. She even confronted that there is a chocolate wrapper in the dustbin when I told her I don't have chocolates. eww! Also forced me to reveal my monthly compensation. naive me did reveal😓 ============== I never realised I just started writing this and never completed or posted. Let me complete it briefly. ============== I told my mom, she saw me like I'm a baby. So, then I started putting on my headset and acted as I'm busy working even if I'm not. It felt rude but she deserved it.