It's Yeux, the fortunate

 It's a day I never wanted and a day I will never regret. Started with a sleepless night, bad bus/bad road. My eyes are dropping while writing this🥱 but its only 19:39 and a rat running. NO YOU'RE NOT SLEEPING!!! TYPE😭. Back to morning, got down the bus with my half dried jasmine ummm still smells goood, clued about how the day is going to be. Kind town bus driver dropped me in the intermediate stop that is close to my hostel gate. Snooped into the hostel without signing the register. Mess staff said if its only one day then no pay. Escape! Else then my visit to hostel would be marked in the mess register. Is it so serious? Yes, because I again snooped out of the hostel without the care taker's knowledge and of course no register sign. Because coming out requires a post card from my parents. This rule is to stop us from running away with our love interest. But my action had no much difference because I packed my bag with extra clothes, extra money and basic stuff going to...

 Here I Am! This is a song from the Barbie movie "The Princess and the Popstar". At the age when I was watching this movie maybe I was in grade 6 in a private school. Though affording the tuition fee isn't easy peasy, my dad did his best to make sure I went there. I can pay the fees, get accessories for the assignment the wholesome required things for being in that school. But I don't dress as fancy as others, my childhood friend thought I looked bad and she moved away, I felt miserable. This doesn't last for long(I thought), my maths mam caught my attention, she was once appreciating my classmates for their good grades. Since I was in first bench(for my height of course) I saw the scene close and wanted it.  It's grade 7, we had a malayali as our English teacher. He is sweet and strict, treats us like his daughter-who was same as our age, lives in Kerala. Since when he was teaching grammar class was neither scary nor boring. We had the same maths teacher now ...

Wow, it works.... Writing down a thing to achieve is much stronger than having it in mind. Here I'm back more contented because I can control my daydreaming. It's much better than before.  Had my first ever journey to Bangalore with my mom, few weeks before. Now what happened today is, I'm reluctant. Towards what? One, appreciating people and next, automatic reciprocity.  Let me start with the second one, I recently met my classmate after semester holidays, and she asked "How are you?", I said "I'm doing well...", then went on asking something and when I stepped out of the room I realised I didn't ask her back about how she's doing. I didn't remember to reciprocate because I wonder what does that answer has to do? I know it's going to be "Fine"!!! because I answered the same even though I was pissed off. But then I feel bad because the last night I was talking to my mentor/teacher/employer/alumni/(I wish to be his friend),.....