Felt loved a lot

 Here I Am!

This is a song from the Barbie movie "The Princess and the Popstar". At the age when I was watching this movie maybe I was in grade 6 in a private school. Though affording the tuition fee isn't easy peasy, my dad did his best to make sure I went there. I can pay the fees, get accessories for the assignment the wholesome required things for being in that school. But I don't dress as fancy as others, my childhood friend thought I looked bad and she moved away, I felt miserable. This doesn't last for long(I thought), my maths mam caught my attention, she was once appreciating my classmates for their good grades. Since I was in first bench(for my height of course) I saw the scene close and wanted it. 

It's grade 7, we had a malayali as our English teacher. He is sweet and strict, treats us like his daughter-who was same as our age, lives in Kerala. Since when he was teaching grammar class was neither scary nor boring. We had the same maths teacher now as our class teacher, I was busy impressing her and competing with other boys in solving the problems in various ways. My Science mam loves me a lot as I listen to the class with full of interest and energy. I completely ignored the fact that most of my classmate denied to be my friend because I denied to be friend with the cutest girl in the class. I was busy adoring my teachers nothing felt more important. Disclaimer: I'm not the class first, but I was enjoying the learning and the journey, that's it. Centum and just pass felt same, along with my dad's words "Focus on whether you learnt the concept than chasing the mark". Ofcourse the school completely supported this as it's a crime to treat someone low because of their grades. 

Fast forward to present, it's my final semester in my UG, and we're going to have the last event in a month. I have lovely friends but never spend a quality time with them during the college functions. I always run away during the culturals as I was never used to it. I was always denied to participate in school culturals because my parents felt that will be a distraction and they could not afford it for three children everytime. And now I got a notification from our girls group on to vote to get a "set dress" for the event, my mind as programmed said NO immediately after reading it. Then later I realised that this time my friends loves me with the same appearance and dressing.❤️