It’s okay to take time to find your rhythm socially

Wow, it works....

Writing down a thing to achieve is much stronger than having it in mind. Here I'm back more contented because I can control my daydreaming. It's much better than before. 

Had my first ever journey to Bangalore with my mom, few weeks before. Now what happened today is, I'm reluctant. Towards what? One, appreciating people and next, automatic reciprocity. 

Let me start with the second one, I recently met my classmate after semester holidays, and she asked "How are you?", I said "I'm doing well...", then went on asking something and when I stepped out of the room I realised I didn't ask her back about how she's doing. I didn't remember to reciprocate because I wonder what does that answer has to do? I know it's going to be "Fine"!!! because I answered the same even though I was pissed off. But then I feel bad because the last night I was talking to my mentor/teacher/employer/alumni/(I wish to be his friend),...but he calls himself as "vetty" and "bayesian". I'm always excited like a fan girl while talking to him during our call to discuss the algorithm we are working on, and this time I asked when is his birthday(I doubt he told a false date), and he asked back when is mine. Now standing in the veranda, I'm completely ashamed that everyone who talks to me are reciprocating but why ain't I? But to cultivate this habit I wish to know why should I?

And the first one is actually simple and I by myself complicating it. I'm working with a team of 2 men at their 40s, and a young lady and a young gentleman. The fact that everyone is older than me, got exposed to the working environment earlier to me, I don't get their jokes and they don't get mine is making me reluctant to socialise with them. But I swear lovely people, they are. They treat me like their collegue, open to my ideas and appreciative. Tomorrow, one of them is going to meet a man, which if goes well, it's a very big appreciation to a work that we were doing past 10 months. And everyone in the group started wishing him all the best and shows excitement. I'm not excited to that level, not because I'm uninterested but on just stepping into my career, I couldn't actually relate its importance. I can actually give my contribution in my work no worries in that but struggling to socialise or get my mind into it.